Tuesday, August 24, 2010

Tainted Ground

If you swallowed your pride and really thought about it

You would recognize that when I say I love you

It is not an empty promise that is meant to make you feel comfortable for this moment in time

Nor is it an empty stanza meant to get into your pants

I’ve been there and enjoyed it…so I don’t need to put down a deposit

see

This love has no obligation

I am here because I want to be

Not because you seduced me

got lucky

could buy me

See what I’m trying to say is---

if you really thought about all the time etc. etc. we have invested

And divided that by our ages and life experiences and the fact that I have seen some things and you have seen some things

You wouldn’t question

The blessing

that

You prayed for

And I prayed for

Asking God to answer your prayers

when what you prayed for is standing in front of your face

Can't you see?

Do you believe?

Not trying to be conceited or full of myself

But the truth of the matter is

My love goes deep

And yes a lot of people want to get to know me

Get close to me

Roam with me…

But I don’t see them

I only see you

See if only you knew

Stopped being so consumed with faceless demons

That

Deceived

Lied

Hurt

Betrayed

Cheated

Defeated

Polluted

Abused you

Left you with cuts, scrapes and bruises

Damaged you roots and prevented your branches from touching the sky

From being purified by the sun

Cause parts of you to grow unevenly

Wilting in the shade

Molds of Apprehension

Not to mention

Tension filled conversations

Where you ask me

Do you love me?

Which really mean “When ARE you gonna leave me?”

Which eventually translates into your own feelings of doubt that I am who I claim to be

how ya gonna fix it fix it fix it

I hear the theme music play in the background

even though I'm not the one that took away your sound

your ability to fly

you remain caged in

Planning futures

where our present remains scattered

Shattered by everything and everyone before you met me

Sirens on rocks who lured you with songs of forever

And as your ship headed to the shore

It hit rocks

Superficial catastrophes

And something inside of you is broke

Damaged the lil brown girl inside of you

Took all her hope that things might be different

Could be different

That you could be healed

Be fed

Be nourished

Be nurtured

Be healed

Be loved

Provided for

Unconditionally

Honestly

The way your mama loved you when she held you in her arms

After you gasped for your first breath of life

The way you loved me the first time we made love

I entered you

You entered me

and you knew

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